"I don't believe in God now, but someday I want to."

I promise you, nothing is more disconcerting to hear. I am surprised at the effect it had on me because the girl who said it was a girl I really cannot stand. It's like saying you will start eating healthy once you are fat and close to dying of obesity.

This also reminded me of conversations I've had with other people. A friend of mine said that he'd like to "try" Judaism, and if that didn't work out- he would "try" being Catholic. Now what I have a hard time wrapping my head around is the fact that these... atheists(?) don't understand that whether it's a religion I'm 'a part of" like Christianity or one that I disagree with like Judaism; in the eyes of the religious, their religion should be life changing and it also is  saving your life. Do you guys understand what I'm saying? I thought that the devotion that is a combo package with the religion was understood by all, believers or not. But as it turns out, some believe it's an easy light switch that you can decide to turn on when you're tired of non-religion.

I guess I don't have a point. I just had this conversation in my mind for half the day, and not sure what to think of it. And what better way to organize thoughts, but to write a blog for all to read. I prayed about this, and I'm going to continue to pray about it, because it's a thought process I don't understand. A life without desperation for the Love of God really is a hard concept for me to fathom.